I’m always excited when I get my hands on a new, compelling book. Right now, I’m gobbling up Dangerous, Dirty, Violent and Young, by Zayd Ayers Dohrn, the son of radical revolutionaries, longtime fugitives, and legal and education activists Bernardine Dohrn and Bill Ayers.
It’s the author’s memoir about his family’s years on the run. Mom Dohrn, Dad Ayers, and their two small boys (they called their dad Bill) lived out of their vehicles and in communes or roadside motels, assumed false names, and were constantly on the alert for tails and phone taps. Mom and Bill fretted endlessly that they’d be recognized in public or some trusted friend (of whom there were few) might blow the whistle on them. Bernardine had been on the FBI’s Ten Most Wanted List at the onset of their fugitive years (she was removed after some charges were dropped due to police misbehavior) but Bill never made the cut despite the fact that the two were co-founders of the Weather Underground that was responsible for bank robberies, bombings, and other crimes.
Bill, in fact, was one of the leaders of the Days of Rage, four days of mayhem in Chicago in October 1969 including pitched battles between street protesters and the cops, vandalism, and physical violence. Bernardine and Bill had been leaders of the Students for a Democratic Society and had grown disenchanted with the SDS’s talk-rather-than-action ways. The SDS was committed to demanding an end to the Vietnam War and for full civil rights for Blacks. Dohrn and others felt the war and the country’s endemic racism had to be challenged actively, passionately, and violently. So she helped form a splinter organization called the Revolutionary Youth Movement which eventually morphed in to the Weather Underground, or the Weathermen (from the Bob Dylan lyric, “You don’t need a weatherman to tell you which way the wind blows.”
The RYM/Weathermen declared “a state of war” on the United States and planted bombs on college campuses, at police stations, in the US Capitol, and other places. Famously, three Weathermen were killed when a bomb they were working on in a Greenwich Village townhouse prematurely exploded. (Factoid: the then-unknown Dustin Hoffman lived next door; he wasn’t home at the time of the blast.)

Greenwich Village Bomb Blast, March 6, 1970 (Credit: Neal Bonzi/New York Times)
The Days of Rage, by the way, coincided with the start of the Chicago 8 trial. (That’s right, it was the Chicago 8 at first; Black Panther co-founder Bobby Seale, one of the original defendants, would be separated from the case by Judge Julius Hoffman.) I idolized the eventual Chicago 7. I was 12 through 14 years old when they became known for purportedly conspiring to riot at the notorious 1968 Democratic National Convention in Chicago through their trial and acquittal in federal district court. My high school nickname was Abbey, a misspelling honoring Abbie Hoffman, whom I thought was the coolest human ever to walk the earth.

(L-R, top row) Jerry Rubin, Abbie Hoffman, Tom Hayden, Rennie Davis; (bottom row) Bobby Seale, Leew Weiner, John Froines, David Dellinger
Here’s a poster calling out for participants for the upcoming Days of Rage in the summer of ’69:

For this rebellious, theatrical teenager growing up in a profoundly racist, Mob-infested, crushingly provincial neighborhood, home to cops, firemen, politicians, and working class families, the Chicago 8/7 represented my own individuation, my statement that I was never gonna be like the rest of you people, that as soon as I could, I’d get the hell out of the northwest side’s boring Galewood precincts, and see the world. I wasn’t going to work in a factory. I wasn’t going to be a cop. I was scared of heights so being a firemen was out. And my hair was too long for me to be a politician. Oh, and the Mob guys were assholes who saw me as a hippie fag.
I could have fit in nicely with the Chicago 8/7.
That is, until I figured out too many of them were overbearing, spectacularly hypocritical stage hogs. As I grew older, I realized my own hunger for attention was better sated on the actual stage or by my newspaper and magazine byline.
Not that the 8/7’s dedication to ending the war and securing equity and equality for Blacks and other oppressed minorities of the world were false or wrong. Abbie Hoffman might have been a ham, Jerry Rubin a self-serving bullshitter, and Tom Hayden a prime example of male arrogance, but the things they opposed were worth getting busted for, getting clunked on the head with a nightstick, or running wild down Michigan Avenue to dramatize the madness of it all.
They were, in other words, human beings rife with all the contradictions of our species. Within every saint there is a sinner, and vice versa.
That’s why Zayd Dohrn’s memoir is so riveting. He reveals Bernardine, the true center and power of the family, as a complicated person, difficult to analyze, impossible to confine within a box, ultimately unknowable. She was constantly a center of attention yet she hated having all eyes on her. Humorless. Unyielding. Doubt is alien to her. She was flamboyantly imperfect even as she sought a classless, communist, equitable — and, yes, perfect — society.
The statues of all my heroes are chipped, partially broken, discolored, and teetering. Mark Twain wrote a lot of crappy stuff. Mike Royko was a drunken brawler. FDR was a scheming charmer. JFK a slave to his dick. Too many of the men i revere share Kennedy’s addiction to sex. Perhaps that’s a feature, not a bug, of male “success.”
The women I lionize — Eleanor Roosevelt, Frances Perkins, Dorothy Parker, Rebecca Watson, Rosalind Franklin, and others — seem less obsessed by accumulating a lengthy roster of sexual conquests but they, too, are imperfect, each in her own way.
So it is with Bernardine Dohrn. Seventy-five to eighty percent of what she has said and done are worthy of admiration. But that other twenty or twenty-five percent? Communism? Bombing restrooms in police stations? Forcing two little kids to live a life on the run from the law?
Nobody’s perfect. Me among them.

(L-R) Bill Ayers, Zayd Dohrn, Bernardine Dohrn (Credit: David Handschuh/AP)
















